attractive and intriguing.

once upon a time there was a boy from the ward who found out where I worked. He would come visit ALL the time [which wasn't a big deal to me at the time-- we have a lot of "regulars"]. One day he was just standing around and I asked him if he needed anything

"I find you very attractive and intriguing and I would like to take you out sometime"

I did not know what to say. But I didn't give him my cell phone number. And I didn't give him any specifics about when I could possibly be available TO go out. Thanks, but No Thanks.
It was creepy! Needless to say, we never went out and he doesn't come visit me much anymore. goo.

happy 4th

Last July I had the opportunity to go to WashingtonDC for my first time! 1. It was amazing. 2. I had an appreciation for my country and all the freedoms I enjoy before, but after going there and learning more about American history and what Freedom really is all about in that setting I LOVE America. We really live in the best country in the world.

The thing that really stood out to me in DC was the phrase Freedom Isn't Free. It was everywhere. I never really thought about it, and had always taken it for granted. I am so thankful for brave soldiers who go and fight for our freedom. Our soldiers even go fight for other countries freedoms as well! Think about it. America is the Best.

I'm the real deal. I think someday maybe a man might just realize that. But for now, these kids I've been wasting my time on just don't get it yet.

Dear boys,

Come on, dig deeper. Maybe you've heard of it? I'm tired of being myself all the time and feeling like I'm wasting my time around you. I'm tired of feeling like I'm not good enough when I'm around you. I'm very through with this idea that I need to be someone I'm not.. The 'if only' curse. The "if only I were funnier, prettier, wittier, smarter etc etc" curse. It's the worst curse in the world, if you ask me, and I'm tired of it all. When you decide to grow up please let me know.

sincerely, erin.

PS

quite honestly, choosing happiness is a daily struggle. somehow, there is a little piece of me that still believes.believes in love. the magical kind. no, not my dashing-prince-coming-to-rescue-me magical kind. the I will love you for every quirk, imperfection, talent, and wrinkle kind. the I will hold your hair back during morning sickness kind. the I will be there every step of the way through chemo kind. the forever kind. somehow. I still believe that exists for me. -Jaleneb

Who is Me?

the gal who wants Christian Louboutin pumps. Just one pair?

the gal who secretly wants to live in NYC someday

the lady who is going to be a wedding gown designer.

the gal who has so much fun just holding blank white paper imagining what to doodle on it

the girl who loves crackers. and frosting. not together.

the gal who thinks the 40's was super chic

the gal who loves Harry Potter

the gal who just loves to dress up, for any and every occasion.

the one who loves oldies. Jo Stafford has a stunning voice.

Seriously right now?!

Did Michael Jackson really just die of a heart attack!?

He's one of those people you just think will never die!

He is a legend.

I will always remember him for:

Thriller. And making stake/institute dances that much cooler with the dance

The "Only in America can a poor little black boy grow up to be a rich white woman" joke

his NOSE and scary scary face. Another example of how terrible plastic surgery is.

Super Talented Dancer.. Moonwalking, the ol' crotch-grab

His Music is amazing. West Coast Swing, anyone?

Captain EO

"I don't wake up for much, but I'll wake up for Michael Jackson..." {inside joke}

Thanks for the good times, MJ

.fearless.

I was the girl who for three years went to college to do generals trying to "figure out" what she wanted to be because she was too scared to go for what she really wanted. The girl who never took risks. Never stayed out late. Never got up to express her testimony to the world in a church setting. Never chopped off her hair {even though she badly wanted to} in fear of how others would like it.

Why is it that I was so afraid to be myself?

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory ... that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." - Marianne Williamson


It finally dawned on me that I should stop caring what others thought, because how was I to be truly happy if I didn't pursue my dreams? I was so scared of even trying to go for what I wanted, I was so unhappy trying to pursue other careers.

I'm finding now that I'm so much happier, that opportunities are opening up around every corner. People are happy for me because I'm happy. I have a new confidence that is helping me see the world in a different light. I have new goals, and I'm reaching for the stars.

Who am I not to be fabulous?

If there's any advice I can give you, it would be to go for what you want. Do what you love. Love life and love learning and everything just falls into place.
Funny how that works out, isn't it?

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