oh man

sometimes I like to be really busy.

I seem to have gotten myself into a lot of things to do
and extra-curricular activities

I may go crazy

please pray that I don't.. I really need my sanity right now.

k thanks, bye

New Beginnings

got a new job

lots of hours to work

less of a social life

not as many vacations


BUT

that's okay


lots of experience

dream job

opportunities

more money

more hours



it's going to be amazing






and also...


is she ill or insane?

is it water on the brain?

what has got her bothered so?

it's the bends! it's the flu!

gosh I wish we had a clue..

Oh wait.

Oh dear.

Good grief, it's CLEAR! !!!

:D

"Aerodynamically, the bumblebee shouldn't be able to fly.
But the bumblebee doesn't know it, so it goes on flying anyway."
-Mary Kay Ash


Ashley, lovely ashley, posted this on her blog. Okay, 1. Ashley you are amazing.


but 2. Think about it.

Aerodynamically, the bumblebee shouldn't be able to fly.


But the bumblebee doesn't know it, so it goes on flying anyway.



I was thinking about this.. You know.. trying to find deeper meaning/applying this to myself. (I tend to do that on occasion).


If someone tells you every day that you can't do something or you shouldn't do something, you start to believe it yourself.

But bumblebee proves it right here. You can do anything you set your mind to! I am in charge of my own future. I can do what ever I want! That's one of the blessings we have living in the USA. We have endless opportunities to do what ever we like and to be what ever we want.

Nothing is holding us back but our own selves. If we listen to criticism and think the impossible isn't acheivable, think again.


Seriously.


I'm feeling so empowered today. I can do anything.


I can be whatever I want to be.


Even if it is 30 different things. If I work hard and seek experiences that are going to help me grow in the direction I want to go, I will get there. Even if it's in 5+ years.

Man.


Coming to realizations feels really awesome sometime.


I always knew I could do it.

But having little reminders here and there are always very helpful

{Thanks again Ash, you're amazing.}



what do you think?

lists

i make all sorts of lists

to do today lists
list of classes to take
lists of favorite artists
lists of rides at disneyland
more recently list of ideas of birthday items to purchase
lists of reasons why to do or not to do something

i even made a list of things i wanted to blog about.

i'm currently sitting here with said list

and nothing appeals to me

wedding gown trends
favorite artwork from the book i recieved for my bday
whether to grow out or chop my hair
stories of general conference
random work stories
current ramblings
super nintendo
chicken salad sandwiches and reception opinions


this list continues

perhaps i will get around to the things on my bloggers list

but for now

i enjoy listening to my dishwasher

and trying to get rid of this dreadful headache. boo.




what would you like to hear about?

maybe that'll help me narrow it down and not feel so overwhelmed

k thanks, bye.

I really don't like it when:

I don't appreciate some people who think they know everything..

You know the type.

The ones who give you advice about how to live your life when either they:

A. Haven't experienced it and have no clue what I'm going through.
B. Are just comparing my situation to theirs and don't realize that I am a completely different person and I handle things much differently than them.
C. Expect me to be a certain way and do certain things when that is NOT me at all.


It's super frustrating sometimes, I'm telling you!



I just want to cut everyone** off for a little bit and just do things my own way. With no pressure. No nagging. No questions! No stares.


It's getting slightly annoying.

I'm sorry. But really.


**not everyone... and I really do respect and listen to opinions and suggestions but sometimes it gets a little too much to handle.. you know?

goo

You know those days


when you feel greasy and you feel like you're uglier than sin?

And you just don't feel like yourself?

And you seem to have extremely pretty friends?

And you don't like any of them a little bit for a minute for being so much prettier than you?




Yep. Today is most definitely one of those days.


GOO.



Photo found: Iams food ad. hilarious. and exactly how I feel today.

.one year older and wiser too.

Top Pic: Most recent pic of me at Bff's Wedding, Jan 2010

Bottom Pic: Age 18




Another birthday has rolled around

The Big two three. Funny how as I get older I seem to get a little depressed. Sometiems I feel old, and that I've just wasted a lot of time.

I just remember when I was graduating highschool thinking that 23 was SO old. Thinking that I would have SO much accomplished by now. Done with school, working my dream job, married, maybe a child, maybe a retuned missionary?

It's interesting. You know how when people ask you "where do you see yourself in 5 years"... You have this plan in your head how everything is going to work out. It just makes sense to you...

No, I haven't finished school. Yet.
No, I'm not working at my dream job. Yet.
No, I'm not married and don't have my own family. Yet.
No, I didn't serve a mission. Yet?

My life, though, has worked out for the better. My Heavenly Father has a plan for me specifically. It's amazing to me. I think about where my life has gone and which paths I've taken. I HAD to take those paths to learn about myself, and to learn more about the gospel. Does that make any sense? I feel like I'm rambling a little bit.

I have accomplished so much though. No, not what I planned five years ago.. But exactly what I have needed to live to be where I'm at and be who I am today.

Now that it's been 5 years, maybe I'll set new goals for the next 5 years?

Where do I see myself in 5?

Finished with school?
Getting another degree?
Married?
Traveling?
Working?


I don't know exactly where I'll be. But I do find comfort knowing that if I'm trying my best I will be in the right place. Even if it's not in my plan, it's in His plan. I can't see the whole perspective. I've gotta keep that in mind.


So, Happy Birthday, Self.

Here's to another year of learning and growing and living and loving.